Dear him,
This is not a love letter.
There are no words that are strong enough to hold the weight of all the things I feel for you.
This is a minuscule display, rather a trivial attempt to chronicle the thoughts that pour out my head.
I tried to picture a life without you for the past 8 months and I couldn't.
I read some where, that it takes an average human 7 minutes to fall asleep. And so I try to think of exactly 7 things, before I go to bed. But thinking about you and me needs more time, because 7 minutes, 7 hours, 7 months, it's all too little. I need 7 lifetimes, and I promise you just that. I haven't slept properly in 10 months (that's how long I've known you) but somehow, I don't mind it. At all.
We're both weird people who refuse to shut up, but when we're together, the world finally seems silent. I think I like the silence more than I like the sound of all the thoughts in my head that just refuse to leave. I never thought I'd say this, but thank you for giving me silence
You gave me something no human is capable of giving anyone else- you gave the strength of the stars before you left and the will to keep living regardless of how quickly the world around me is turning to dust. To run away. Not away from life, away from all that doesn't make it better.
I'm glad we have so many photos together because one day, when my mind stops functioning and I need to remind myself who you are to me, I'll pick out prints from my memory box and stick them on every wall so that my world surrounds me.
This is not a love letter.
There are no words that are strong enough to hold the weight of all the things I feel for you.
This is a minuscule display, rather a trivial attempt to chronicle the thoughts that pour out my head.
I tried to picture a life without you for the past 8 months and I couldn't.
I read some where, that it takes an average human 7 minutes to fall asleep. And so I try to think of exactly 7 things, before I go to bed. But thinking about you and me needs more time, because 7 minutes, 7 hours, 7 months, it's all too little. I need 7 lifetimes, and I promise you just that. I haven't slept properly in 10 months (that's how long I've known you) but somehow, I don't mind it. At all.
We're both weird people who refuse to shut up, but when we're together, the world finally seems silent. I think I like the silence more than I like the sound of all the thoughts in my head that just refuse to leave. I never thought I'd say this, but thank you for giving me silence
You gave me something no human is capable of giving anyone else- you gave the strength of the stars before you left and the will to keep living regardless of how quickly the world around me is turning to dust. To run away. Not away from life, away from all that doesn't make it better.
I'm glad we have so many photos together because one day, when my mind stops functioning and I need to remind myself who you are to me, I'll pick out prints from my memory box and stick them on every wall so that my world surrounds me.
Love always.
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